tell me what you know about love ? ok. what we know about love.or what i know about love, well , i say none, it is so , cant be described , im only 18 , what can i crap about this EH LO EH LO VE stuff kan?but all i can say .love is love , and what is love, lord knows.
these past few weeks ,i was preety much accompanied by misery.thanks to you. rajin rajin datang laah lagik. i just love to be miserable. and why is that,? unknown!i cant seem to make up my mind , where will i futher my study , and knowing this is the time of my life. i rate this A PLUS jackass! , i am very thankful with every chances i was offered , i do, i did , and i will always. i wonder why i am still very much confused , but i think ive made it clear. i guess. i came out with my own plans. plan A , plan B! i regret the moments where i couldnt be better for myself , i regret every moments that i screwed up my chances.and i do regret every moments i spent without being driven enough to be extraordinary. and i should be one by now ,last few days i received a call from BANK NEGARA , lucky i got shortlisted for the interview and lucky again i blew up my chance, i missed my interview since i didnt check my freaking email , ouhh hate me, hate my email!i could see that my father and brother were very much dissapointed with me,. and knowing that, it actually burst me into tears. how could i be so careless , bank negara is my big deal , i called the officer for many times , but she was VERY VERY busy to pickup my calls.she said she'll send me another mail wonder if i can go for that interview. so i waited like a drovers wife left behind by his husband, and the penantian.?? i swear , menyeksakan!it was. with JPA stuff lagik , you know what here i wanna make a big statement here , DEPAA MALAS ANGKAT PHONE or maybe they just hate the fact they had to entertain me , gosh! luckily the caller ringtone was kinda fine! haaaa. or else. my ear drum will be exploded with extra rate of my angerness! for few days i checked my mail , hoping puan atina yusuf will send me email about the bank negara interview , and all this rescheduled matter , but . i did screwed up , my big bro said "dah dah tak nak cakap ngn adik " , and my father said " everyday adik bukak computer , how come u never check ur email . i was so upset =( you know the feeling when you realised u dissapointed your family ? for me it is a big matter , and it always be . hiyaa . huu , i instant messaging alot with my friend , lin, thanks to her , we actually helped each other to keep ourself motivated again. i guess it is true " success comes from failure " . anyway , going through hardtime is just the way of life. so deal with it. enough of regretting , enough of feeling sad for myself .i decided to be stand up and back up myself , for two days i planned about my education and future.i finally decided to get over my jpa and go and live my dream to the fullest , law student! here i come. please remind me why i chose economics for the first place instead of law ?? i was too scared that im goin to pass trough this CLP certificate which i have zero idea what is the hack is that thing , but i actually love both subjects , but too many people advised me about my career ahead , aishh. gilaa pening.! at last , i decided to let ALLAH decides for me , after semayang istiqarah , i am preety much confident , i want to be a lawyer , i wanna study what i do best , reading instead of freaking numbers . and and and that time , i came out with ideas like
1 study foundation kat uitm shah alam. struggle nak mati punya lahh . i need to score above the target. mengada dak if nak 3.8. gilaa.
2 after 3 sems. kalo dpt elok , nak apply bank negara or mna mna scholarship for degrees. then mama papa x yah antaq duit byk sgt. huu.
3.then time degree kena dpt pointer elok. sbb nak scholarship!
4. after that nak wat honest . for one year if im not mistaken
5. nak wat chambrigne for 9 months. hahaha. now i pronounce afiqah advocate andd andd ?
6. kalo dpt keja ngn company yg bg scholarship tuh bgs laa
7. then kalo kena keja setaun dua dulu , then nak apply for master overseas. still , i have to go abroad .albert einstein once quoted : experience is the only source of knowledge ." yeayyhh agree!
8. by the time i reach 27 or 28 dah ada master,. yey. then only start to focus on life , nak dapat bonus 13 bulan. cewah. macam boleh ja. beli rumah , beli cooper satu. buat rumah yg comei satu, den ajak papa mama duk sekalik . nak bg anak2 kakak and abg2 pakai baju hot2 , so that nnti depa will sayang their aunty piqah . but only and only if my siblings get marry laahh
9. hee, ajak nadira , nabila , hakeem shopping , not trying to spoil them kak long , but im so gonna buy them lots of things .
10. im so gonna end up being a spinster! haahahah
climaxx!
kringg! kringg! helooo?
" afiqah ahmad? saya dari bank negara , ada interview 18hb ni. bole datang tak ?
" yaa. yaa! bolehh " omg!
" ok . nanti check email yaa "
" ok. terima kasih , ouhh i love youu!
" hehehe. ok "
alright , i did say i love you. i did! and i got my second chance! yeayy! ya ALLAH , thanks. syukur sangat! so this time, even if i cant make it , even if its hard to get the scholarship , its ok. at least i know that i was given the best chance to try , its not success that matters to me , but the effort , i hope i still can be zero and trying to be hero .! damn tired of being ordinary me . so transformasikan diri anda! weet weet
ps : extraordinary people are actually ordinary people doing great things , hope im one of them .cheers cheerio!
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