to be honest when people ask me to stay, i understand why. and when people reasonate too well on why i should go back, i understand that too. thank you for all your concerns in which i am concerning about that ( too!! you heck know that) actually im glad. glad that, ooh finally! feels like im growing up! haha this is it, decision making because this is it, the it decision of my life. meh , joking. im scared. 

now i know why i so lack of sadness, that is because my brain my heart are releasing something that you know whenever something sad happening, my whole system is refuting like you knowwwww 'unhappy' is actually for a matter fact, sad-less, or pain-less. or takda rasa-less. woah! 

haha okay i dont know why. im worried, sure i am.. but lets just say my faith. my faith is my company. i believe in Allah, and for that I know He'll lead me whenever wherever He knows this servant is going to best at, Ya Rabbi, Did i thank you enough? Have I? that whenever i think of Your goodness, tears fill up my eyes. You so good. So kind. So understanding, which I do not always deserving.