ive got a colleague coming to me asking whether i go out or not? and clearly i went "emph what do you mean do i go out or not?" 

"yah i dont know do hijabis go out or not or what you guys do if you go out". 

of course on my mind i was already swaying some chicken dance moves uttering W-H-O-T-T-DIDYOUJUSTSSAYHEYIMJUSTABOUTTOBEYONCEHIM!

but fair enough, nobody knows everyone and to a clearer fact, we most of the times dont know ourselves too. and it is very humanly to be too quick to judge, and again that is also a reminder to myself. 

i could have bumped into someone with such smelly armpit thinking that maigod why dont you go run to the nearest 7e and get yourself a deodorant when the truth could be that person dont even have enough money to eat or supporting the family with mere income. You see, there are just so many possibilities and we certainly dont have that right to judge. 

of course i go out, i do go out. to 'chill' with friends, to listen to cool jams, or to enjoy evening tea, or to linger around in a  bookstore. May not be the awesome-st places on your list but those shall be fine, at least to me. I do have my struggles on daily basis where I do feel like woots It would have been nicer if i slay the outfit with my new fringe hair or should i just clip it to the side or should i ponytail it? 

we all do have that struggles. at least to me as I grew up not having my head covered. it is tough not because of the expectations but prolly because of own's temptations. i have days where i feel like mannnnnn, im not even myself having my head covered. I dont behave like one sometimes, i dont mingle like one sometimes, and Im probably too----- to wear it.

and that is because the dogma that Ive set towards how wearing hijab shall be which made it super-hard! but again, with or without, nobody shall be given the rights to judge, and when you decide to do it, think of it as a gradual and gracious process. nobody is perfect at one, nobody could. My eldest brother told me how hijab should role in your life, the modesty that it carries or at least how you think it shall play a part in your life. 

Reason the wearing and you shall find the answer. And most importantly, nobody shall lose themselves in the process, because nobody is defined by a piece of cloth.

That journey, that relationship is known and shall only belong to Him.