scream,

thats me being un-cool about close to most of the things.

Supet not cool. but I wonder what would make me cool then? Doing things others do, or catching my endless breath knowing that everybody sort of 'achieved' something, and I'm sort of running from behind to catch up but never know where is the finishing line.

the art of living does not lie in all these, you sprinting just so you could finish at the same time, run at the same pace, going through the same marathon route. Nope, that's not it.Some finish at 2km, some extend it longer at 5km, and some run wild finishing it at 10km. So where do you belong? You can be at all those three, at different times. You need not to run and finish your 10km within 1 hour period just because one whole troop do it/did it. You just need to know which finish point you want to aim for and work on the pace. Sometimes you go low with the shortest distance and get better each time.

These are all the times you learn to appreciate your process rather than forcing it too hard without understanding the whole process. The same way I'm experiencing it now. I have you-have-no-idea how much i wanted from life and people, and it sure have gotten me frustrated whenever i feel like im no running. One thing i know i need as the medicine to this is focus. Narrowing things down on things im currently doing, things i want to do, things I know im good at, things I'll never do, and how these shall collide or align with my values. Knowing these will at least help me to be focused and make wiser decision knowing that my options have already been narrowed to align with my values.

Time for some jotting-goals down again I believe. Whatever you do, just dont settle. Do big dreams and do bigger actions. Hashtagging this to my value.