what do you want to be when you grow up?

a hairdresser!

Easier to easy when you're 5 but when you're a grown up. It gets harder to answer.
My not so rocket science realisation is I don't fancy commitment. I may say I wan't it but I was never good with commitment. The idea of staying with one company doing the same thing freak me out a lot. I instantly feel trapped even though I love where I am at this point.

Everybody wants a companion in life but having to fear commitment, I try hard to imagine myself waking up everyday next to someone, and there will be days I will not like him so much, and there will be days I want to just be by myself, not having to caring about that someone. Woah, overwhelming!

Child, when you're hitting certain age you will find those crying babies quite cute actually. Okay, maybe when they don't commit to the idea of public shaming- crying endlessly in public/or screaming/or puking/or throwing fit that mummy no longer bother to handle. But yes, I do want one of those babies, haha but again, serious talk, that is like your lifetime commitment. You commit to the idea of putting someone else above you, you prioritise their needs, and you're responsible in patterning the person they could and might be.

Unlike scanner, scanning things on the surface but varies in quantities, these are the questions that people should ask and answer  accordingly. What you actually want? What are your fears and would you be willing to overcome this? Are you willing to go on a project to discipline yourself and figure things out further?

Ushering out 2017 with still questions unanswered but I believe, trying and doing are always something to begin with