life.life.life

have you ever wondering whats the purpose of your life? i mean.what are you goin to the within 10 years time, are you the super hot successful career people or your just the next 'so..soo ja ' then have you ever take a nap thinking who and what kind of guys out there you'll marry.is he nice but.but dia ok je la.. or the next typical goodlooking guy with zero attitude! hahah.i always know what i want, what im planning for, even within the next ten years time. ofcourse la one of then cam fantasy ja. ada ka hoping that jude law would knelt and says" marry me juliet you'll never have to be alone, i love you and that's all i really know." ahahah, which im 143 percent sure it wont and it would never happen! geeee =) ok proceed, how come im starting to lose control of everything, like im not sure of everything anymore.im becoming this lazy bum who refuses to think of anything, i feel like **** who wants to lead a happy and easy llife. that's it!aishh.! and the worst i feel like im a spoilt kid who bebai everytime her moma asks. adekk cepat urot mama! ahahah. suddenly im stressed out, like it's my must duty! huuu, then guilt is all over me, shoot ja. how i wish i would say ' ok mamaa, here i come. ". sorry maama!


tonight i realised how much my parents would do anything just to spendtime with me, while i on the other hand prefer to date my korean dvds. or or.or,feeling tired of doing aything! aisshh, i dunno. i feel like im home,but i never been their little girl who used to mengadaa ngadaa lagik da.which i know, they still want me to. growing up is a tough phase or maybe im the oly weirdo who's facing this crappy dillema.

mama,papa,bros.kakak, i love you guys no matter what, maybe growing up made me a bit different,yeah of course you cant expect me to still clingy to you guys all the time, sleep in mama's room.huu,maybe i just grow up. but i'l definitely sort my guilt, i'll be yourr baby all the time again like i used to ogeyh! love youu loads!













if you happen to see this baby alarms her, her beloved family want her back!