COME BACK

HELO.HELO. today , monday , 29th june 2009 . afiqah ahmad is still afiqah ahmad . trying to make a great comeback here, hey i realised i havent post anything for days! i got affected by this syndrome. bila tak online , otak dihujani idea untuk blog , and when im right infront this screen, im stuttee--stutttt - stuttered!my fingers got numb!

realising how serious my otak is not functioning , im using a great force here , i visit http://www.blogger.com/. and heloo, everyone seems to have something going on with their life , and me ,?? hahah. im enjoying ice pop. ice cream malaysia , remember the one we bought at sepuloh sen when we were little? i say, its better than cornetto and paddle pop! so i decided to ask my cousie , mak yan to make for me , three flavours - milo , corn , and orange , hahah. ckp la jagung ja . wutta hack dok wat maju corn gitu. ewah. haha.

im counting days . few days only to stop pampering myself.and start my life as a student. everything is like mixed soup. added with salt , sugar and ingredients. im scared , terrified , inferior , excited , wondered , and i cant seem to list it down here , or else people would just end up reading a list about what afiqah ahmad is typing and it is not remarkable, i realised. ive been crapping alot here.www.transfiqah91.blogspot.com. and see? even my url sounds so immature to me. i should get a better url back then. and when im about to make a new blog. it seems wrong to me , because changing me wont make me realise how kiddy i was back then. why i always think alot ? as much as i eat . i think alot also. hoping im trying to fulfill the propose of having a critical thinker. i asked my brother "abg mal cena nak menjadikan diri adik more bertauliah from others ? he replied "dont be one . jgn la nak menjadikan diri lebih bertauliah dari org lain , but you should work hard to push yoursefl utk menjadikan diri the best for yourself ."

how lucky i am kan ?i always got myself spirited from people i love the most , family .then baru la nak sedar , why im always negative- charged kinda person , i always like this ,masalah dalaman . thinking too much ,way too critical . and this result to - physcho freak -. i always think people are better than me , i cant compete with them but im too ambitious to resist it. then i wonder why is there always people better than me , preetier , richer , hotter , and why people are so good at numbers and im anything but that, shit kan my thoughts ?? i dont know how people think of it , and i dont know what are they thinking about , but for now at least , im feeling better , like one song from black eyed peas " i gotaa feeling , that tonight would be a good good night ". its more than ok to be what we are actually , maybe im not the owner of hilton's hotel , maybe i dont own a lamborghini , or maybe i dont wear prada and gucci but who cares kan ?? i own myself , i have my family and im living a good life , people , i guess grateful is one of the way to resist this devil , enviness .

and about frienship . im not too sure about it . cause i thought ive had it . even if every ships sink . but friendship never will ? u agree ? emh they said titanic is magnificent ! nothing could let us down . but see what happened ? it sunk .even the best ship sunk . whats left with FRIENDSHIP ? i dont know this , but i said so , people change , and people leave . so im quickly prepared for it . even if i lost the best friendship , its still okay , because im living to cherish everything , i remember , when i was 10 . i said , nothing is important . nothing is more meaningful , than my family . and i had this thought where friends are only for benifits , the one i can talk to when im at school , to accompany me during recess , to be the one where i can copy homeworks . and at this hour , i realise , im worst than jerks who broke thousands of girls heart . i was selfish , and i was . i wasnt being a good friend . and even if there are parts where i was . i wasnt good enough for anyone , i called friend . i just wasnt . and since im so pathetic to change history , i cant fix it . or maybe im just too lazy bum bum to change it . so i left what happened as history , history that i screwed up . so from now on , i will start making a headline , trying to be better for everyone .be a great person , daughter , sister , cousin , aunty , niece , and friend

, and to those who always there for me , thanks ! i love you nabilah , ,!

p/s : years later , when i marry , my hubby and my kids , will be amazed , why my mum is so freaky freak. hahaa!and my hubby might be saying this " son . daughter , your mother is so colourful , hahah."

perasan!