Yawning... Im on my way to actually have my noon nap. and my justification of that, I woke up early in the morning to send my brothers off. so this sleep Im about to have right now is nothing but what I deserve. Earlier on the table while having lunch we talked about the girl who came to help us with house chores. An Indonesian girl, as young as eighteen years old, very innocent-looking girl- those are enough to make my heart goes hansbdhssksksksjxbhsh for the fact that she had to leave home and work this much when she is supposed to be finishing her study, enjoying what I thought was important, college life and teenage being a teenage. Unfortunately, what I thought matter most is actually a priviledge I enjoyed, I enjoy, that not everyone gets to enjoy. I should teach myself to be say Alhamdulillah as often as I could. To be honest, I am not in my best behaviour , where my brain and my heart no longer working simultaneously. I should teach myself to let go of things werent decided for me, should teach myself to accept things as it is.
im off now, for my heart is itching this bad. and when I wake up, I hope I should continue being the old happy passionate me
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