not quite sure whats the root of my work problem. it is not too bad. fine i hate the fact how routinal it is, but its normal job is indeed routine. and in fact, I havent learned much yet. I hate the hierarchy of work place. maybe because I wasnt feeling good about what Im doing even in the first place. but colleagues can be not bad though it can be bad. Im just pfttt. i dont take pride in what I am doing. thats just it. I feel no acknowledgement when i shouldnt be seeking one. but It's just toooooo 

depressing and Im deprived of the energy that I am supposed to exert