career, for the noobie.

Reminiscing years way back when I was in high school, no way there could be things worse than having to wake up early, getting yourself ready for school on weekdays basis, and homeworks. No way, man. I knew I could trade those school days for work life, at any time any day. Not that I knew of a lot on working life, but I guess at that time adulthood made all senses. At least, you'll be in charge of your own life, yes? 

Thats the tricky part. What nobody ever going to tell you is that taking in charge of your own life is far scarier. No blame-game. You, yourself decide your education, your commitment, your skills that need to be honed, and all chances to market yourself in competitive work market are now lie on your shoulders. Now ah now you do wish you have four shoulders instead of two.

I graduated a year ago, and decided that a trainee-ship program would be the best platform for me to go into working world. Afterall, at that infant stage, all I knew was the need to go out of unemployment as soon as I could. And I did. I landed a trainee-ship with a MNC bank and good enough, that bank had helped me to gain much respects from the family, friends, and in general, public.You know the need of  appreciation/compliment that is suggested by Hierarchy Maeslow? Yes, I was one of those that appreciate  appraisal for my achievements.

I knew all I wanted was a job but unfortunately, I could see myself slowly wanting to have more than just a job. I started acknowledging my skills and interests, weaknesses and strengths, and so I realized that the job at the bank end corporate banking is not my forte.

Decision to leave the job was easier, in fact way easier to digest because I know what I dont want. but the problem is, I never know what I ever wanted, and up to this point, I still dont know what I want. 

*to be continued*