beat the procrastinator in you.

I don't know about you and you and you but for me to beat the procrastinator in me is probably one of the toughest hurdles in my adulthood. Not that i was way better younger but the reality hits harder when you're a grown up. Imagine life without paying bills (they come chasing after you), imagine household with plates, bowls, cutleries left in the sink for weeks (that wouldn't be life afterall).

Because you think you're an adult, responsibilities you shoulder become bigger and heavier. And you cant just escape but to go through events in life fearlessly. That's what adulthood does to you.

But of course, visualizing my words can get easier than making sense of it when it comes to actions. Getting things done in real life may have involved (hours) of procrastinating, contemplating, and knowing and not knowing what to do.  These hours that we have delayed may also be the hours, precious precisely to make use of something educational and purposeful for us or to others.

Again, adulthood is also a choice. You shape your life by making choices, good ones and bad ones so that you'll learn, learn more, learn better.

And tonight, i choose to go to bed in an emotion that I'm aware we have no control of our lives, and still, I want to choose to go to bed wiser in my emotion.