Your  chances in people.

People come and people may leave, interesting enough we do not have absolute control of these. Sometimes we meet people, fall deeply, liking them hard, and life forces you to see them go.

Family, friends, lover, what are you chances in them?

Think of how much values and principles you have touched others with, think of how much tenderness and love you have offered, how about your generosity or kindness? If you were to die today, what kind of prints would you be leaving?

I never knew any other type of loss that could teach so much love and strength. I never knew that humans are able to go through anything unimaginable, and bounce back so we could continue the journey of life. Losing my mother (un-imaginable), pain and heartache, but sometimes i do not feel like she is not here and I still have a heart filled with so so much love, just by thinking of her. Losing my precious now teaches me that there is nothing I cannot do, and also how temporary worldly life is, which is good, less reasons to be fearful.

Friends, sweet and complicated. I have not been very good in this department. Apologies for
my inability to enjoy reading and texting back messages. I do not attend weddings as much as I should have
(maybe I should be starting now). But I also have friends who would force me out of my cocoon (literally). Three stooges of mine would call, numerous texts, ask-me-out, ask-me-if-im-back-from-work, respond to my premenstrual syndrome's dilemma. Such efforts! And another friend of mine has the abilitity to force and mock me (at the same time) just so I could make it for our food-venture. And another, the person I go to discuss life plans, goals, new readings and let loose with. And some, are those I share intense memorable 4 years back in Canada with, friends who are like family. So friendships are hard work, you will encounter the few ones who will show you their willingness to be there, and those are the people you work hard to keep them in. These are the chances I have in them.

And then, theres love-love. I probably score 0.5/5 in this scope. Hard, tiring, efforts. But never over/underestimate the impact of one person could have in your life. One day you wake up pissed, another day, anxiously waiting for the texts, and probably on the same day, a heart that is content with love. Ah how could that one person bring so much emotions?! I do not know much on this but I hope you will find love in a person who you will be waking up feeling pissed at (sometimes) but the same person shows you love, respect, drives, and comfort.  Likewise, when I meet the person worthy of a lifetime, do not be surprised if you find me knocking his door with a bouquet of flowers and a date invitation. Our chances in each other.

I now acknowledge that we can do our parts whole-heartedly. Responsibility, commitments, love but only Allah can decide what shall be our best. What are your chances in me?