choose growth, anytime.

It is not easy. Some have it figured and some don't. To find the joy in doing your tasks at work or via volunteering opportunities may not come easy and requires a lot of wayfinding.

I call it wayfinding after my first encounter with the word in my design thinking book. I may have not been there, but my encounter more than 6 months ago have changed me, my life so so much. Trust me, I am clueless as well if it was the book as the wake up call or I have always been that future-oriented all along.

I appreciate the hardship in letting go throughout this period. Never have felt this motivated and empowered to achieve something for myself at a cost of losing someone who feels like home.  I now value myself better and know that the act of love shall and can only start with myself. I am very proud that I emerge as a whole new leaf despite losing and smeared ego.

Within 6 months, I have done a lot. I volunteered with Lean In NGO and starting to find meaning in the cause of the organization. I must admit I am a little pessimistic to define gender empowerment but   any big or small cause shall start with a single step, and this is mine, and I believe to a whole new beginning to Malaysia as well.

I wanna be able to learn guitar, but the progress can. be a little too daunting. But to add cherry to at least my intention, I learn swimming now. Self taught and can be doubtful but at 3-4 months learning, I must say I am improving.

I quit my job. Never easy, 50-50 that this may or may not work but in the name of growth, I decided to leave. I super love my colleagues but sometimes you have to take different route because each and everyone of us are destined to be at different places.

The key is to not stop trying. There is no cliche in never stop trying. Try things that you are fearful of and you become less fearful, choose growth and you will learn to grow gracefully.

Till then!