manual to love

Its another day of another year I let my self writing alone in a corner of my bed, and its Valentines Day! Sure, I might not be the only one, together with me could possible be another million souls out there wanting to share their soulfulness with stranger they meet on the train, or the person sitting next to them in the office, or the cute barista who makes perfect coffee in the morning. You see, people love the idea of having someone, someone who accompanies, who makes heart flutters, or rain feels like the most romantic watery drops could fall upon two lovebirds.

Like many, I feel the need of having a companion, a companion who could read a little of my deadly stares, could understand my mad gestures or excitement that I usually cannot contain. If you like reading or at least that is how you usually operate, telling people you like to read, you may have gone through books or at least catch glimpses of book and article titles that may seem relatable to you or your love interests. It cannot be true enough for me.

Trust me any title that starts with How do we know, How do we get, 10 Signs GUYS fall, Your LOVE based on...  umph yeap I read those, and cannot get enough of those until I realized that these as much as very applicable to the majority, one person can never be generalized as the same as another ten other persons. I am not the same as the person who is sitting next to me, more alone not the same as million others out there. What could potentially work for me might not work for others. Operating the same methodology on these love cases, I half substantially figured that not everybody who replies two-words text is not interested in you nor taking you as 'convenience'. They could really be working on something but still have the urgency to text you, they could be driving but still have the need to talk to you- and hey that is not safe. Going through all these articles are good for your researches and reviews but never for your solutions.

Love is a euphoric feeling- addictive, possessive, obsessive, and that giddy-ness you shall never be able to conclude even if you were to write it as a thesis. It is a feeling, mutual or not, it is the feel you feel inside and you just cannot lie. It hurts, it is madness, and how easy it is to fall into the trap of making wrong decisions just because our minds are clouded with non nonsensical humors and non relevant reasoning. Those are your brain talks, because it could talk too much, Chatty mind that is what I'm calling my mind. Bear that chatty mind does not listen as much as it should, sometimes mind decides to get too emotional, too smart it gets to over-analyze tiny petty things, giving the unnecessary paradigm effects to almost every cases when it should not. Maybe for that one time, follow your heart. Trust your heart to give out the most even by knowing that there are chances and risks it will be broken, it will be torn into pieces, know that your heart is strong and shall be able to mend those pieces again. Take a break from going too mechanical about it. Yes no manual to love. AND even if there is one, DONT TRUST it. Follow your love, follow your heart. It (sure)  knows how to to break  (no joke) but most importantly only that heart of yours could feel the biggest impact of love.